MACalicious Def

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1. never figuring myself out
2. that i'm going to push people away because i'm scared
3. anything that could be described as 'creepy' or 'crawly' (spiders, rats, snakes, bugs)
4. people i love dying
5. never learning how to be happy
6. being by myself
7. that i'm not as good of a person as I should be

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM

1. my kitty cat Zoey
2. my eeyore
3. my crazy comfy bed
4. my accessories & clothes
5. all my dvds/cds
6. All the important letters i should take care of but ignore
7. My books

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU

1. I put more make up on when i feel bad
2. I lie a lot (mostly to myself)
3. I don't try because I assume I'll fail
4. I regret a lot of things I've done
5. When I'm really upset I'll cut or dye my hair
6. I dance and sing A LOT when I'm home alone
7. I rather stay home and read a good book than go out

SEVEN THINGS YOU WISH TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. Get something from Tiffany's
2. Get my 'dream job' once I figure out what that is
3. Take a trip to Europe
4. Find someone who loves me unconditionally
5. Love myself
6. Bungee jump
7. Kiss Tony Lucca/Ryan Gosling/Patrick Dempsey/John Krasinski

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO

1. I can listen
2. I can make people laugh
3. I can give good massages
4. I can cook
5. I can sing pretty well
6. I can put on make up
7. I can give good hugs

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T DO

1. I can't do a cart wheel
2. I can't not speak my mind
3. I can't remember everything
4. I can't figure out my future
5. I can't stay patient
6. I can't tell someone I like them (thanks, Annie lol...)
7. I can't do my hair

SEVEN THINGS ON SOMEONE THAT CATCH YOUR ATTENTION

1. Eyes
2. Laugh
3. Shoulders
4. Smile
5. Accessories
6. Shoes
7. Walk

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST

1. OMG
2. Shut Up
3. Fuck
4. Hmmph
5. I know, right!?
6. Seriously
7. Ridiculously

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES

1. Tony Lucca
2. John Krasinski
3. Ryan Gosling
4. Patrick Dempsey
5. Milo Ventimiglia
6. Josh Holloway
7. Katherine Hiegl

Reject a woman and she will never let it go...

...One of the many defects of their kind – also, weak arms." Dwight K. Schrute

Yea, I'm feeling that today. Blah...people are so disappointing. I fear that I idealize situations and fantasize such an outcome that it's unrealistic and I'm therefore usually disappointed. I guess I just expect people will react in certain ways, and it's usually never the case. Does that make me stupid or just hopeful? Sometimes I feel like there's not a difference.



Music is amazing, you know? I heard a song that I haven't heard in probably 5, maybe 6 years. I started sobbing...not crying, but sobbing. It brought back all these memories and thoughts that I suppose I've been supressing. Here I've been thinking I've overcome situations and learned and grown. Nope! I've only pushed them away and blocked them from my mind. How does that happen? How does one just completely shut a door on some painful strip of memories to only have the door pop open when you lease expect it? It was so random how I found the song and the minute it started playing, I felt hit with this wave of emotion. Does that sort of level of emotion make someone weak?

I feel out of control. I need to figure stuff out. Make plans or get a fresh start. I don't like where this is all heading. I need to learn to not repeat patterns of self-destruction. If I know someone or something is bad for me and does not make me happy, why would I chose to continue seeking their company or continue the bad habits?

The hardest things to change are the choices we continue to make over and over again. Sometimes I get tired of saying no to the things that I shouldn't want but always do. I have too many bad vices and I need to start being good to myself.

Easier said then done, right? So, my friends...help me. If you see me doing something you know I'll regret, stop me.